A few days ago, I received an intriguing invitation from my lovely artist friend Susan Brown; an invitation to join her in her dream of creating a magical place of community.
"When I was envisioning this project at its completion I pictured the beautiful decor, the exquisite music, the various people sitting together laughing and sharing....I invite you to imagine yourself in the Venue I'm creating. Really, can you imagine who you could be in this setting? Could you play? Could you get up and share yourself in this magical place?"
As I read Susan's words I pondered her invitation...do I sing, do I dance, what is there that I have to share?...there was a moment of silence in my head, when nothing at all came to mind & then I looked up & saw this picture...
and I burst in to tears!
I gasped, as I instantly recognised myself.
At the beginning of this year when I set my intention to "bloom" life quickly became very challenging & it just hasn't let up since.
There is some very deep work happening for me.
I have come to realise that I have been locked in the snare of looking in the mirror held by another (it's been that way for 50 years). I've been bound by various shades of guilt & shame that don't belong to me. They never belonged to me. They are all lies. The truth has been banging on the door of my heart, my body shouting in pain..wake up, wake up & then I looked in the mirror of Susan's picture entitled "Eve" & I knew that I would never believe the lies again.
My new truth is just this:
"I have the right to be here, to be me. Just as I am."
It's hard to keep going when you feel you'll never get there, but this is my new dream:
I have sent for a print of Susan's wonderful Eve & you can see more of her fabulous work at Bohemian Romance on Etsy (unfortunately she lives in the United States).
Several weekends ago..I looked up to see a bride walking by.
And very soon I saw a bus...a bus full of brides, in fact!
I couldn't very well go & stand on the street & take photos so I crept out on to the porch & snuck these pictures. A friend solved the riddle later that day...apparently a confirmed single girl was turning 40 & decided it was her best shot at wearing a wedding dress, so she & all her girlfriends (one of them being a neighbour), dressed for the event & then hopped on a bus for a road trip to wellington for the weekend.
All returned the following day, looking a tad worse for wear & no longer very bridal!
The entourage of dad's & husbands turning up to retrieve each one was rather entertaining too...especially the ones with small children in the car!
Look, He made me a heart with a lovely long tail....thank you.
The red & white striped ticking discovered in Aaron's Emporium looks rather smart.
Thank you for being so lovely & visiting me.
I hope that you have a wonderful week.